"happi" 4 mths to us..
haha..
k bye..
nthin to say oredy..
cs i didnt go out d whole day while he is damn fcukin njoyin outside wit his frens..
we were supposed to b eatin out at swensen which i was SO LOOKIN FORWARD to bcos da lamer tk p.. d last tym i went oso was wit dani n hu i cant remember..
but tk sempat sal
he nk play soccer..
later going to lepak2 ngn kwn dier mlm nie..
to tynk tt todae i wa hopin so much to spent tym wit hym..
n it turned out tis way..
crushed sia inside..
tau lah its nt wrong fer hym to go out with his frens but i onie wanted todae to b more meaningful..
later on i'll b damn bz den leh lah dier njoy ngn kwn dier without me fer sumtym..
lagipon bsk i haf 5 hrs of tutuion den mondae i haf art until 7..
npk sgt i'll get tired..
den later on i haf 3 days course frm 8 in d mornin smpai 9 at nyt fer 3 damn straight fcking daes..
pk kan ari lain tk pnat ker..?
den sundae ader tution lagik..
i'd onie b seeing hym in d mornin.. tu pon kene pakse bgn pagi.
lau pnat pon mungkin i come late den tk jmp..
tts y i wanted todae 2 b d last tym i cn njoy ngn dier sblom i get really bz..
lagipon lau u tynk next ani. leh pe..
otak. don even noe if d next one will come..
mind u..
i gettin more n more bz each dae..
more n more tired each dae..
oways gettin sick..
so little tym fer hym..
n tynk sooner on,i don even haf time fer hym animore.
bt i dun feel lyk lettin tis feelings grow ani further.
its fer d best cos i'm not ready to b in tt sorie state animore.
i'll take d whole nyt to tynk cos i slept d whole fucking afternoon..
u see tis smal ting affected me alot sia..
i donoe y..
cried sia d whole day but its onie a small matter..
wat if smthin worst turn out..?
wat will happen to me sia. ?
mayb it was wrong to let tis feeling grow..
shit here i go again..
bye b4 i burst d hell into tears..
i hate me..
o lvls r damn much more important..