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Friday, January 20, 2006

I'm busy throwing hints that he keeps missing
Don't have to think about it
I Wanna kiss and
Everything around it but he's too distant
I wanna feel his body
I can't resist it

I know my hidden looks can be deceiving
But how obvious should a girl be?
I was taken by the early conversation piece
And I really like the way that he respect me

I've been waiting patiently for him to come and get it
I wonder if he knows that he can say it and I'm with it
I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning
Catch this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos

If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control

I'm busy showing him what he's been missing
I'm kind of showing off for his full attention
My sexy ass has got him in the new dimension
I'm ready to do something to relieve this mission

After waiting patiently for him to come and get it
He came on through and asked me if I wanted to get with him
I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning
Won't miss this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos

If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control

If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control

I've been dropping so many hints
You're still not getting it
Now that you've heard everything I have to say
Where we gonna go from here?

After waiting patiently for him to come and get it
He came over and asked me if I wanted to get with him
I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning
Won't miss this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos

If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control

If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control
(I control)

If you're ready for me boy
(For me boy)
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
(Oh, oh)
You're gonna miss the freak that I control

Ohhhhhhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhhhh

todae
kuar ngn my darlings.
=)

gerek.
cam bdak giler.
ketawe2.
mengumpat2.
mengutok2.
=)

nari i werkin at 8 mlm smpai pagi.
nari ferz tym kerje pat floor.
hahas.

so tis guy pt my tpt kerje.
finally "pushed d button"
first impression kiut uhz.
time pat kerje he oways bully me.
den he dpt tau yg tis sat i werkin smpai pagi wit hym den die cam hapie2 sambil kacau.
standard.
den skali after few daes.
smlm he got d guts to ask my no.
hahahahaha.
den kte contact.
bla3.
get to realli know hym.

so we were tokin abt valentines.
den he said sape2 dpt jadi valentine die dis yr untung.
haha.
so he actualli kinda asked me to b his valentine.
tu smlm.

nari he said he wanted me to b more den his valentine.
=)

so bsk kerje ngn die.
=)

nari pon i werk mlm.
he didnt werk.
bt he came.
ntah apasal.

smlm watched in her shoes ngn my kwn kerje.
he actualli nk mit me lepas tu tapi tetdo.
haas.

aniwae.
bir da stead ngn a gal.
i know oredy.
so dun tell me.

k.
bye.

at 6:48 PM

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

heys.
i'm at d lib.
wit nad n her ehem.
khekekeke.

first of all.
me n bir da 100% off.
no more cumin back to each other.
so don ask me anytin abt hym.
i donoe.
i don care.
i don wanna noe.
gosh tt sounds so mean.
sorie.
he said he don love me like he used to.
n he won cum back,
he even wan me to let go of hym.
yups.
i did.
in a shorter period den i xpected.

werk,werk,werk.
laugh,laugh,laugh.
tok,tok,tok.
smile,smile,smile.
n nthin had ever been d same.
everytin is great.
=)

i learn to look at everytin,
n i mean everytin positively,
=)

aniwae my beloved nad da ade yg punye.
on d 16 ryt.
hopes tis works out uah.
muahx

oh ya
slowly my appetite cumin back.
n i'm lonely no more.
smhow everynyt i oways haf smone to tok to.
thanks u guys.
muahx3!

aniwae i'm usin prepaid. wanna noe d no den ask.
haha.

so fer 2 daes my money on d dot.
=)

i brought hm 2 box of stikko.
belambak siak.
saper nk mintak ye.
=)

so finally got realli close wit a fren at werk.
pas kerje smlm kte p mac den tok2.
waited utk die den tman die alik naik mrt.
n we share d same locker. haas.

many of my close frens facing relationship probs.
d reason.
unfaithful guys.
wish smtink cn knock dem back to thier sense.

well gtg.
watchin movie wit wan n nad n her bf.
=)
taas.

ps.
lagu nie utk sesorg makhluk dlm hidup ku.
=)

at 6:12 PM

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

heys~
as xpected my comp is not okay.
i'm at his hs.
he's sleepin.
b4 u guys start askin loatsa qns.
nope.
we're nt ok.
he finally confessed d truth.
d part i feared d most.
n as xpected,it came thru.

2 daes ago we went msia in d late mornin.
n yah.
we tot a lot.
overnyt dere.
caught 2 movie.
bla3.
den headed hm.
we had another tok b4 leaving.

now i'm at his hs wit hym n hs adik sleepin.
played xbox jap tadi.

so yah.
he said he like tis gal alot.
n i love hym a lot too.
bt i'm really willing to let hym go wit tt gal.
n i will pray n hope fer d best fer dem.
bt he's so reluctant to do it.
mayb being wit her brings more benefits den being wit me.
dun worie abt me.
i'll b fine.
realli.
at least i'll try my best.

y he likes d gal?
i don blame hym.
i only haf myself to blame.
y he likes d gal?
1 ting fer sure is becos d gal has smthin tt i don.
n its smthin tt he nids.
tts y.

he nids her.
he don nid me.

its sad wen smone cud catch up wit u tt fast.

all tis while i took our love fer granted.
all tos while i took u fer granted.
i'm so sorie.

i 've once pictured us apart.
bt nvr had i tot tt it wud tis hard.
i'm torn apart.
worst den i had ever felt b4.

bt its ok.
i'd slowly pull myself together again.

i look arnd.
my frens nw r havin long relationships.
it makes me sad.
i look arnd.
my frens haf found their smone special.
it makes me sad.

we've plan so much together.
bt notin came true tis yr.

teachin u fer ur o.
ice skatin.
pool.

notin seems ryt dese daes.
i've lost contact wity my bro.
my mum owns a huge sum of money due to sm window problem.
d window in my grands room fell.
charged fer killerlitter n to repair.
more den $2000 wasted.
smtin is wrong wit my maid.
cud anytin get any worst?

fer 2 nyts straight,while u're asleep,
i stayed up d whole nyt.
just to look n admire u fer d last tym.
hold ur armss tytly fer dlast tym.
kiss u fer d last tym.
hug u tytly fer d last tym.
wishin tt i wudnt haf to let go.
each tym i look at u.
i cant realli tell wat i feel.
hapie. sad. confuse.
bt i nvr fail to shed a tear each tym i tynk of u.

last tym u used to scold me over d smallest stuff.
now i noe u actualli cared.
i noe no one cud ever care fer me like u did.
n i noe no one wud ever love me like u did.
no one cn ever hg me like u did.
or even kiss me like u did.
no one cud ever make me feel d wae tt u did.
u noe.
d feelin i get wen each tym u make a silly face den kiss me.
or d feelin i get wen u scold me.
or d feelin i get wen u praise me.
or feelin i get wen each tym we hug to sae gdbye.

i was realli lookin ferward to spendin our aniv. tis mth 2gether.
or so many more mths to cum.
i realli wanted to clebrate his bdae wit hym again.

i've nvr love smone as much as u b4.
i nvr tot i wud love u tis much either.

i wish i cud go back in tym.
back to those un spoiled moments in our relationship.
b4 hurt ever touched our hearts,
b4 doubts ever entered our minds.
bcos if i cud go back n start frm those moments once more,
i wud hold u longer,
nvr miss a chanceto tell u,
hw much u mean to me.
n i wud nvr ever hurt u.
bt i know we cant go back to those daes.
i know i cant erase d mistakes.
i cant take away d qns u must haf.
or d hurt we both feel.
bt i can assure u one tinmg.
i love u as i did den n as i always will.

i love u very strong.
bt sadly i hafta let u go.

thankieu.
sayin it a million tym cud nt even cum close to all t u haf gave me.

nw its 4.31am.
another hr b4 i hafta go.
so bye~
got to treasure every last bits of d moments left.

at 4:07 AM

Friday, January 06, 2006

i cant sleep,
wen everyting i ever knew,
is a lie,
without u.

i cant breathe,
wen my heart is broke in 2.
there's no beat without u.

ure nt gone bt ure nt here.
is tt d wae it seems tonite.
if we cud try to win these wars,
i noe tt we can make it ryt.

cos baby.
i don wanna fyt no more.
i fergot wat we were fytin fer.
n dis loneliness tts in my heart,
won let me b apart frm u.

i don wanna try.
boy to live without u in my life.
so i'm hopin we cud start tonite
cos i dun wanna fyt no more.

how can i live,
wen everytin tt i adore
n everytin i'm livin fer.
boy its in u.

i cant dream.
sleepless nyts has got me bad.
d only dream i ever had.
is being wit u.

i noe tt we can make it ryt.
its gonna take a little time.
lets nt leave ourselves wit no way out.
lets nt trust tt line.

cos baby.
i don wanna fyt no more.
i fergot wat we were fytin fer.
n dis loneliness tts in my heart,
won let me b apart frm u.

i don wanna try.
boy to live without u in my life.
so i'm hopin we cud start tonite
cos i dun wanna fyt no more.

remember tt i made a vow,
tt i wud nvr let u go.
i meant it den
i meant it now.
n i wanna tell u so.

at 5:59 PM

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

heys.
so we're finally over.
again.
haas~
after 9 whole mths,he said we were nt mentally prepared fer a long relationship.
n poof.
he's gone.
wasnt 9 mths long?
y now den he said it.
after everytin.
y not frm d start?

u noe nt everyone had d oppurtunity to b able to feel or b in our position.
n dere u r throwin it all away.
u noe many of my frens envy me cos dey really wanna b in my shoes.
bt nt animore.

so yah.
wen i'm nt ready to give up yet.
u are.
bt wen i'm ready to give up,
ur not.

so u're sayin to ferget everytin we had.
n pretend it nvr happen?
if u realli wan it tt wae, den its all urs.

but just to let u noe.
if u ever wanna turn back on ur werds,
i'm always here.
n willing to accept u back in my life.
n loved u like i usded to.
no wait.
love u more den i used to.

at 4:24 PM