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Friday, March 31, 2006

argh.
trying hard to remember what happened yesterday.
but forgot uhz.
just remember tt at night all of us slack infront of rais hs.
everyone was there.
mad,fit,an,rais,jar,cheese,zap,me n nad.
only shahryl wasnt there.
wth.
forget about it then.

as for today,
spent d whole day at home.
he came over.
then he went out with his friends to eat.
while i went gv to take my pay slip.
so my pay isnt as much as last month.
and i got 6 complimentary pass.
ok lah.
better then nothing.

met up with him back infront of gv.
when we wanted to go infront of rais house,
rode his bike without the helmet.
saw got police car then panic sekejap siak.
haha.

slack until 2 with him,rais n an.
after that rais took his mum's car key.
n yupps.
we took a ride.
bloody hell.
he drive like drunk driver sia.
damn scary.
but we enjoyed ourselves uhz.
haha.
went pasir ris park.
went around tamp.
went 7 11.
speeding n all.
his u turn mcm nk terbalik sia tu kereta.
haha.
an smpai pegang tu handle kuat2.
funny sia.
summore they turn on d music damn loud.
from techno lah.
to rock lah.
then to rnb.

reached back to rais hs around 3.30.
went home close to 4.
n here i am now.
he sleepin already but i understand y.
went out the whole day.
so let him sleep first.

as for now,things are going along fine.
n thanks to those who were willing to listen out.
lurve u all loads.

time really flies.
hows things gonna be like once i start schoolin?
hows things gonna be like once we start schoolin?

at 4:18 AM

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

heyss.

woah.
so many things happened in a blink of an eye.
feelings get all mixed up.
n we're back to square one.

finally when i come across d one i really like.
things get really difficult.
yes i admit.
i really2 like him.
even the smallest things he do can make me smile d whole day.
yes i know.
eversince my last breakup.
i had nvr like anyone as much as him.
i like his personality.
d way he's patient.
d way he treats me.
d way he treat ppl.
d way he respects ppl.
d way he always gives in.
d way he talk.
d way he smells.
d fact tt he doesnt drink.
or go to other extend.
simply i love d way he makes me smile.
i love the feeling i get each time i'm with him.
each time he kisses me.
each time he hugs me.
each time he bullies me.
each time he calls me.
each time he tries to wake me up in d mornin.

everything btwn us is fine.
d only problem is.
everything else around us doesnt seem to be on our side.

its only been a wk.
but d obstacles can nvr b compared.

his friends.
i know most of them used to have feelings for me.
but i turned them down.
like i said.
d most i can do is say sorry.
n tt d fact is i don feel d same way towards dem as i do with him.
but sure i got my reasons y.
if i cant like u, i cant force myself to ryt?
in d end i wont only be lying to u but i'd be lying to myself to0.
i just dont want him to b treated differently just becaue he's with me.
n i hate d fact tt they think i like him just because he got a bike.
i swear to god tt thought nvr even came across my mind.
if u know me well,i'm not into these stuffs.

his ex.
i went plaza sing just now for my orientation.
n i bumped into her cos she's working there.
she congratulated me first.
den we started talking abt him.
n it hurts me just to see how much she really love him.
i'm just scared i wont be as good as her.
it hurts me more knowing she's still in love with him.
she dont say it.
but i can see it.
of course.
he was her first ex.
and they had a 1 yr relationship.

i lost a very close friend.
a very close friend indeed.
n i must admit.
i'm not used to us being this way.
he aint calling me anymore.
we aint chatting with each other animore.
we dont even talk to each other when we meet.
i'm so not use to it.
i wish we cud b like b4.
but whats done is done.
n right now.
d only thing i can do is just to miss him.
n yes i am missing him more them words can say.

and i'm not used to d fact tt i need to break d news around.
especially to those who i'd turned down b4.
like my x classmates.
n d gv staffs.

and it gets really difficult.
i'm not sure if i'm willing to let go of everything.
or him.

fuck.
its been a while since i've been feeling this down.
gosh i almost forgot how it feels like to have tears rolling down my cheeks.
or tt feeling of getting stab in the heart.

i like u a lot.
but like they say.
we cant have everything in life.
we gain n we loose things at the same time.
but i cant bear loosing u.
nor loosing what i have now.

i wish i could hold u tightly.
n knowing tt everything is going to be alright.

right now, ure at d next blk.
sitting with ur friends.
while here i am.
pouring out all my thoughts.
i just dont want to trouble u.
guess i've gotten u into enough trouble already.
i'm sorry~

at 12:13 AM

Sunday, March 26, 2006

argh.
fuck d mess we're in.
whatever it is.
i'm not sure whats gonna happen next.

at 9:34 PM

Saturday, March 25, 2006

guess who's tt?

got ani idea already?

kristin n it.hehehehe.

so yah.
it came to gv just now.
damn cute sia.
giving away free baloons.
but work was damn fun just now.
stupid aldrin never fail to bully me.

he sent me to work just now.
dont know why my grandma is so fond of him.
bagus lah tu kan.
=)

so yesterday went watch dorm.
with nad n hym.
it just brings back the memories ofme n my x dulu.
always out with nad.
had lotsa fun aniway.

went to meet the guys after tt.
slack n got screened.
went home at 3.

at 10:22 PM

Thursday, March 23, 2006

heys.

so monday went watch urs,mine n ours with nad.
d storey very sweet.
=)
d whole time kene kcau ngn aldrin.
he took my clip.
can not watch in peace.
haha.
after tt we went to eat at haagen dazs.

tuesday worked floor.
den watched d guys play soccer.

yesterday worked floor again then went to sharyl's hs.
play comp.
eat pizza.
slack2 till 10.30 den went home.
changed.
meet up with rais,an n jar under an's block.
around 2 mad join.
went home.
talk on d fone.
its been a while since i talk long2 on d fone and really enjoyed it.
talked for almost 2 hrs.
laughing most of the time.
slept close to 5.

woke up at 11 today just to wake hym up.
hahs.
=)

i want to upload more songs in my mp3.
mendak sia.

at 11:49 AM

Monday, March 20, 2006

heyss~

so yesterday i wasnt working.
in the evening.
met up with jar,an and rais under an's blk.
which is only next to mine.
headed towards town to catch date movie.
sat next to an.
throughout the show they were laughing like hell.
kental siak.
but the movie was ok lah.
kinda lame.
but still.
ok.

went to eat swenson after tt.
jar blanje.
thanks jar.
i didnt want to eat.
yet he still insist.
so yupsh.
ate ice cream also.
hahs.

went home took taxi.
stayed around.
shahryl came.
den went home around 3.

so my x msged me yesterday.
saying he's gonna be with this gurl.
but dont know whats holding him back.
i just as him to go ahead .
b4 it might b too late.

am reading d previous testis he gave me.
wth.

aniway.
pk2 alik.
i havent been really liking anyone since d break up.
smhow i just know its coming.
shit.
i dont want to.
but i cant help it.

at 2:26 PM

Sunday, March 19, 2006

ikin~
i'm really sorry i walked away.
was really bz.
n they really needed smone to clear d cinema.
n they kept calling me.
u saw right my manager halau me go up.
sorie2.
i end my work at 5.30
waited an hr tinkin i might see u after d show
to wish u.
but there were too many ppl.
really2 sorry.
=/

so like i said.
worked floor todae.
n candy bar.
n had to train fairus at kacang today.
and bloody hell.
there was many ppl sia.
really very tiring.
i had so many things to bear in mind.
like checking d toilet.
helping out cb if there were many ppl.
help fairus.
n clear d cinema.
cam nk melalak sia.
naseb ader org tu cool kan kte down ehk/
=))

so went magic wok to celebrate mum's bdae.
walk2 around whitesandds then met up wit my kuzzies at restu.
had a long talk with feika.
hahas.
love her loads.
muahx2!

den met rais,fit,an and ibrahim.
slack3.
jar came.
when home arnd 2.

smthin happened just now.
for sure i'll b smiling when i sleep today.
ouh n nad if ure readin this,
please kol me.
got smthin really urgent i need to tell u regarding u know who.
ceh.
like harry potter sia.
speaking of which,
mummy bought d goblet of fire vcd.
=))

so tmrw we planin on watchin date movie.
at town
we'll see how it goes.
till ere den.

ikin.
if ure readin this.
i'm really9 sorie yah.
hAppIe 15tH bdae~

took some pics ttd ay. hahs.

at 2:48 AM

Thursday, March 16, 2006

i damn lazy to work today!
dey put me at level 6 summore.
i dont want to work today.
hahs.

not been a gd day for sharyl.
pray for d best for hym.

so yesterday went bugis with jar,shahryl n alijah.
then met up with rais and an b4 headin burger king.
went basketballcourt n met up wit fit n david.
went home around 3 am.

today is 16.
cud haf been a yr.
hehs.
but wth.

gtg.
got to drag my lazy ass to work today.
haish.
bye.

at 2:10 PM

Monday, March 13, 2006

yeay.
so my comp is finally ok.
=)

so yah.
really nothing much to write.
everything is fine i guess.
lazy to type much.
so i'll just upload pixs lah.
hahs.

me n shahryl.
was bored waitin for d rest b4 going to d beach.

dem at downtown.
i'm d cameragal of course.
=)

playing with shahryl's laptop.

my cat.
for those who really wants to see hym.
hahs.

well gtg.
workin tmrw at kacang n still havent sleep yet.
hahs.
tata~

at 6:01 AM

Thursday, March 09, 2006

blo0dy hell.
my comp down again.
like not fated to have a comp.
hahs.
=)

just gotten to know some ppl dont understand my blog so i'll learn to type every single thing in english.
ok.

hehs.
so yesterdayi had off.
as usual spent my time with them.
went shahryl's house first.
met rais and an there.
then rais headed towards hospital at around 7 while me and an meet fitri.
at cofeebean.
then saifuln zap came.
saiful bought pizza.
dont know what occasion.
hahs.
then rais came.

of all the ppl i can see,
i saw my ex there.
haish.
dont want to explain what i felt.
then after tt headed basketball court.
went home around 2.

now i'm at shahryl's house.
writing for all of them testi.
hahs.

came here around 1.
with jar.
on his bike.
yes.
md izhar bin abu bakar has a bike.
a red rxz.
hahs.
still cant get that thru my head.
=)
ride with him yesterday also.
khekeke.
thanks ehk jar.
=)

so its only me,jar n an now.
waitin for the rest b4 headin off to the beach tomight.
till here then/
tc.

at 3:45 PM

Monday, March 06, 2006

heys~
yesterday went to work.
then caught the midnight show.
wolf creek.
with aldrin,hui yun,yi chong n farris.
crap sia tt movie.
but wat the heck.
it was free aniway.
=)
at night jmp shahryl n rais.
went home at 7 am.

slept.
den ija came my house.
met jar n an under my block b4 headin off to starbucks.
met rais there.
jar blanje air.
den anta ija home.
met jun wei for a while.
met them again ater tt.
we went under an's block after tt.
went home at 12 plus.

rais n jar

jar n me

jar.

an n jar

that is what u get when boredom hits u.
jar took all this pics with my hp.

many things been happenin.
many things been changing eversince.
n i can quite say i've already adapted with the changes.
but then again.
once poly starts.
everything is gonna change again.
n its quite scary.
cos i have no clue what its gonna be like.

oh ya~
so i manage to get info com at tp.
at least its tp.

i'm stiil sick.
have been sick eversince i overnight at syaheed's pit.
that was on d 25th last month.
wth.

aniway i got a new kitten at home.
he's damn cute n playful.
so its fun.
manjer sia dier.
n semue manjer kan dier jgk.
especially my bro.
hehs.
oh well.
gtg.
gonna meet shahryl n rais s0on.
bye.

at 1:45 AM

Saturday, March 04, 2006

heys~
so been spendin every single day wit them.
tk kan lah nk update everything kan.

so tadi worked till 6.
den met up with jar,zap n sharyl den headed towards marine parade.
met fit n rais dere.
mkn.
jar wanted to buy jacket tapi ind end tk jmp.
headed back tamp to meet an.

me,zap,shahryl n jar.

me n zap.

at 4:12 AM