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Thursday, March 29, 2007

no one will understand how i feel.

so i wont expect you to understand either.

how could one feel so loved.

yet so empty at the same time?

trust me.

i have no clue either.

and it sucks.

at 7:00 AM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

its been days since i last updated.

nor even change the song.

but despite that,

my site meter still keeps going up.

partially the reason why i still update despite the bz schedules.

supp papers are finally over.

and gut feeling says i'm gonna have to retake this subjs.

oh well.

lesson learnt.

just like raph.

*chuckles*

too much of movies.

caught tmnt with the guys at cathay yesterday.

cute lahh.

yay.

pays in 2 days time.

sch's in 4 weeks time.

old time memories got the passion out again.

if you get what i mean.

*hum2*

how's life in one werd?

unexplainable.

at 7:14 PM

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

the song explains it all.

i'm sorie.

hope you'll still appreciate what you still have now.

and promise we'll still be friends.

just like before.

just like when we first met.

this is goodbye.

for good.

at 7:04 AM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

these past few days has been a mess.

but yet a blissful outcome always at the end of the night.

you dont know what you're doing to me.

well my love has got back with her love.

all the best nad.

and dont forget me this time.

and another thing,

me n someone need to talk.

things can continue this way.

seriously.

Its been a while hasnt it?

*hum2 shalalala*

we're on the top of the werld.

at 7:48 AM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

fuck lah.

i tot you were different.

but the fact is,

you're just one of them.

who rather go for somthing further.

and lose what we already have.

just another D _ _.

just another J _ _.

just another S _ _ _ _ _ _.

just the same.

i'm dissappointed too.

you said they were childish.

what about you?

whatever fuck.

ugh.

oh.

and i heard smone asked his

friends to get drunk together that night.

haha.

what happened to

get drunk till i puke?

i got S _ _ _ e.?

haha.

whatever fuck.

why the fuck do i have to hurt so many ppl

just to go after my own happiness?

whatever.

the past 2 days have been a bliss despite

whatever fuck i just wrote above.

for once let me have that heck care attitude instead

of everyone else giving it to me.

i'm gonna love you despite what's going on.

at 5:34 AM

Sunday, March 11, 2007

i'm not your toy.

when you're

bored you play with it.

when you're not,

you leave it alone.

you want me to make you feel secure?

make you feel tt i still love you?

make me still take care of your feelings?

but what about me?

stop treating me like as though i have no feeling.

i'll stop making you my priority.

and you'll stop making me your option.

cos i'll never be anything to you anymore.

i'm walking away.

this time its for good.

i finally learnt.

i've had enough of you.

at 11:11 PM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

can we quit pretending already?

at 2:24 AM

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

well.

the meaning of each songs i put up is always true.

so this i what i'm feeling right now.

oh well.

i'm not gonna rejuvenate what i did in this entry.

i'll just press out myself here.

i'm suppose to feel free.

but why do i feel so tied down?

i want the ability to msg who ever i want

without hurting anyone.

i want the ability of going out with whoever i want

without hurting anyone.

i want the ability to call whoever i want

without hurting anyone.

this is for A and B.

i dont want ppl to act in such a nice manner infront of me.

but then turn around and talk negatively behind my back

and then give me an explanation for that.

you want me to believe you?

or the other person to believe you?

who you're trying to kid anyway?

this is for C and D.

i dont want ppl who are not involved in any situation.

to tried fit their large smart ass in.

whatever that is happening btwn me.

is only betwn me and to who ever it may concern.

dont pretend to not care.

a snooper will always be noticed.

dont pretend to say things out loud so as to make sure i can hear.

say it to me.

better still.

say it to my face please.

this is for D.

i'm like hot under the collar for like thousands of reasons.

thanks to A ,B,C and D

but yeah there's karma.

maybe not instant.

but when you've been through it.

then you'll know.

despite evrything,

like they say.

every cloud has a silver lining.

** you dont know whats happening within.

at 12:48 AM

Sunday, March 04, 2007

my saturday started out with a nice gift from nad.

syg you bnyk2 lah.

then we meet up with mad an and fit.

headed to penin n town.

shop.shop.shop.

then we ate ice cream at anderson's.

nad's treat.

after which at night when riding with them plus jar.

zul n his gf.

headed to new places.

scary places lah.

lolx.

then went changi beach.

then they all met up with su and all.

i didnt folow but ended up reaching home at 8 somehow.

haha.

k. the bad sleeping habits cant continue.

so lets disipline myself.

the melody is like the physical attraction towards someone.

but the lyrics is when you get to know tt someone even more.

thats why they say.

melody and lyrics play a big role.

just like love.

There is a lot of love coming your way from friends, proving that you are cared for.There is a lot of love coming your way right now, although it might not be coming from the source you were hoping for. You're in something of a quiet phase, romantically speaking -- but there is a lot of energy in the friendship area of your life! The people you choose to spend your free time with are totally in love with you -- and they will be showing you this in some very touching ways today. Remember that you are loved and worthy of love -- no matter what's going on in your love life.

at 3:37 PM

Saturday, March 03, 2007

lalala~

its 7 am and i just got home.

welll today was splendid too!

hmm.

went town with mad,farhan and nad yesterday.

then slack with the guys for a while.

then meet him.

today.

werked.

after which.

me.

arry.

zura.

din.

isk.

caught dream girls.

i came late and missed the first part.

but its okay.

i can see when i'm werking.

and i am so hook to the songs lah can?

i find the songs superb.

and the movie wasnt tt bad either.

thumbs up.

havent seen good movies lately.

on just follow law.

norbit,epic movie,ghost rider all want nice.

after which we decided to watch music and lyrics.

still us.

and yes. sitting next to arry is so _[insert werd here]_.

haha.

asik kene kacau je sey.

citer touching2 trus tak touching.

and zura was like ehem.

*chuckles*

the storey was even better.

and the song is so stuck in my head too.

went mac to slack with the usual.

this time farris joined.

then at 4 am.

meet an,mad,fit and jar under the block.

i came with nana and nad.

nad and mad n jar went off.

we went to mac to accompany nana eat.

and here i am.

btw this song is from dreamgirls.

somehow i just love the meaning.

inspiring perhaps?

i'm slowly achieving it.

the keywerd?

PATIENCE.

at 7:21 AM

Thursday, March 01, 2007

helo2!

*waves*

had one of the best laugh since

i-cant- recall when.

i mean.

seriously.

i laughed in tears.

and stomach aches.

and cheeks too.

its been while hasnt it?

well the day started off with my last exam paper.

then idah asked along to eat at popeye.

and was planing to meet nad after tt.

but eventuallyy,

i feel asleep!?!

haha.

so then i just met up with

nad.

arry.

din.

isk.

zura.

and caught ghost rider.

the show was so so lah.

arry cud have slept.

and nad was like yawning the whole ass time sia.

we then had this suprise thingy for one of the nicest manager.

as it was her last day.

and yah.

was also the last day for one of our great full timer.

so we hide in the site office.

in many funny2 places.

lolx.

take a look at my multiply and you'll see.

so she came in and suprise2!

the cake straight in her face!

hahahahahahaha.

so what else to do right?

i ran and ran and ran.

like wtf.

i could almost faint out of fatigue.

haha.

she chased us all the way to long john silver lah sia!

some got sabo with cake,powder.

or for some like me,

got wet with water in the toilet.

haha.

we were like so scared.

even the managers.

super cute.

until i even dare to hide in the gents!.

hahahaha.

damn fun lah.

the fun didnt end there.

so we went to mac to slack after that.

and yes.

weplayed so many stupid games.

that actually made me cried out in tears lah sia.

they were all damn funny.

from this zoom & zah game.

thanks to arry.

to this name calling games.

thanks to nad.

to this movie naming thingy

thanks to isk.

like haha.

and my damn throat hurts so much just bec i laughed a lot!

so we went home at 6.

and yes.

i didnt sleep.

i played laptop games bla3.

till 10?

am going shopping later with the love.

** you know i havent felt this good since a while.

i cant help but smile.

**today is thursday right?

1st or march?

the first day of a new beginning.

lets start leaving everything behind.

from today onwards.

i've been thru this twice.

this would be easier to pull off.

at 6:38 AM