so near yet so far

hym n me

y am i misin u soo much wen ure still here ryt by my side..?

tt fridae my klas had tis small outing to d beach..
it was damn fun as everyone was united..
actualli ive no mood to updae.. haha..
parents nt at hm.. siblings slipin.. grandmother tokin to fone..
larlienk playin soccer..
so damn bored..
nthin to do actualli..
tmrw sch..
yay.. now i don look ferward to weekends like i used to..
in fact i look ferward to cumin to sch instead...

haish.. i actualli put tis theme cos i'm so feelin it ryt now..tryin hard to stay positive..
d song is xactly wat i feel.. n xactly wat i fear.. didnt meet hym d whole dae..he didnt send or pick me up frm tution.. nor did we made an effot to mit up at nyt like we used too.. he's playin soccer now wit his frens.. while i'm here havin nthin to do.. my grandmother just asked abt hym..haish.. its ok.. though i realli3 wanna see hym ryt now.. jush tryin hard to kip tings positive.. bt i cant.. he used to wan to mit me though its onie fer a while.. or no matter how far i am.. bt not animore.. now even if we cn spent an hour together.. he said its too short so he didnt wan to mit me..last tym even wen he cant go out,he'll find a way to go out.. even if it means gg out frm his window.. bt nt animore.. i'm not sure wats happenin to us.. or mayb i'm nt sure wats hapenin to me. . but i'm sure wat eva comes next is d best fer me.. n i admit.. i don feel tt he gave me as much attention,love,care n concern like he used to.. nt sayin tt he didnt.. he did.. but its fading.. or mayb he just gettin more n more bz n not enuff tym fer me..?

fcking sista.. i jush slap d shit out of her.. disturbin me wen i'm so down.. go n die lah.. hu ever wans her.. it will b a pleasure to give her to u..haish...

well.. ryt more wen i haf d mood..actualli i donoe wat to sae.. aha.. damn.. till ere den..