hey..
guess i'm on my own again uhz..
n tis tym its fer real..
but i choose to walk away..
i told hym bcos i wanted to focus on studies..
tts was partially d reason y..
lately it seems tt tings arent d same..
n d same ting goes to wat i feels..
guess tis wud b my last entry b4 closing down..
well.. i guess my feelings fer hym are too much oredy..
guess mayb tts y i became so foolish n selfish..
lyk those small lttile tings tt he doesnt do to wat i want,
my whole mood wud b affected..
n same goes fer my mood to study..
and no..
i cant let tt happen..
prelims r gettin reali3 close..
n i mean it..
i dun wanna stayback cos of him..
i dun wanna enter ite cos of him..
i admit i'm clever.. or mayb a so called fast learner though i barely cum to sch..
but i'm nt gonna let everytin go to waste..
not my mums money..
not my mums sweat..
not d gift tt god gave me..
no..
i'm gonna make use of it..
actualli i was tinkin of tokin tis to hym straight bt he cant mit me..
see..
its lyk dose very important ting he cnt see mit..
bt wen its nt.. its diff..
like xcuses.. u noe. .
no i'm nt gonna cry fer hym nimore..
no i'm nt gonna wish he was here nimore..
y waste tt tym wen he don even bother..
i noe i'll fynd smone better smday.. its onie a matter of tym..
but all i want is a just a last hug frm u..
last..