hey,
nope my comp is still down..
i'm here at farah's hs..
just usin her comp..
checked friendster fer a while..
tings are really in a mess fer me ryt now..
he's startin to work..
i'm startin to finally get back my best fren..
n o lvl is around d corner..
everytin is changin so fast..
i haven been cumin to sch fer 12 sch days straight..
he started werkin n he'd barely b dere..
he admits he has a crush on smone..
i noe i'm tryin my best to trust hym..
but its harder wen it had happened in d past..
i noe sumtyms i tynk too much..
i just want tings to be better btwn u n me..
btwn us..
i don wan history to repeat itself again..
bt sumtyms i just feel so bad..
tt gal is lyk way prettier den me..
n its lyk.. i'm in d way or sumtynk..
its lyk sumtyms i feel i'm just not gd enuff fer hym..
lyk he's so baik.. n i lyk so d opposite..
he deserves smone who's better towards hym..
u see d point is i love hym very very much..
very very very much
a lot indeed..
sumtyms i get so selfish cos of ur love..
its lyk i oways nid u..
ur attention..
we r startin to fyt over small tings..
i just wished we cud b lyk b4..
bt tings r so different now..
i'd b goin out without hym now..
n i wud barely get d chance to mit hym..
i thank god at tis point of major tym, im not alone lyk i used too..
mayb i cud get back lyk how i used to b..
b4 i ever get messed up by love..haish
hw cud i study if he's oways on my mind..
3 weeks more b4 my actual ppr..
i just hope i can make it..
i'm not l0okin ferward to d next dae lyk i used too..
i just wished tt tym wud stop..
i know if he'd werk he'll get money n we can njoy..
bt i don want d money..
u re d one hu stressed ure body fer tt money,go n reward urself..
i don deserve it either..
but money isnt as valuable as tym..
i don care if u had no money..
all i want is only ur tym..
n as fer at home..
i haf probs regarding my bro..
i noe ppl get off track along d way..
i did..
n now he did too..
but at least he's makin d effort to get on d ryt track..
but no one seems to notice all his little sacrificies..
i feel useless..
i cant help hym..
i dun wan my dad to send hym overseas..
i'd miss hym like shit..
n i don want to depend on my sis onie..
cos i love hym more den my sis..
sometimes i wish i cud just blow my baby brother's tears,fears n worries away..
i just wish tt tings wud turn out ryt..
n everytin is worth while..
tings r screwin up..
but i noe god nvr gave one more burden den dey cud handle..
god noes i'm strong..
i noe i'm strong..
i'd make it through..
wit or without someone..