i don see wats d use of holding on animore.
i'm attached bt i dun feel like it.
like wen ure attached,u noe shudnt get too close wit other guys.
like da cam biase cam gitu dulu cos i noe automatically tt i'm attached.
n i won get too close.
bt i dun feel tt way now.
lyk now i try tell myself nt to get too close to a guy cos i'm attacthed.
bt i cant cos honestly i feel like i'm single ryt now.
still feel nk ader matair padahal da ade.
i donoe how to xplain.
like kte name jek matair.
bt i feel nthin btwn us now.
lyk we barely mit.
especially since o lvl realli near.
den wen we contact,mesti diam atau sakit ati.
though i mls to contact hym at tyms,i tried hard nt to let it overcome me.
i'm scared i get t0o use without hym.
den wen i haf plans n he wanna join,i feel iritated.
like dun wan hym to follow animore.
n lyk i wud rather do other tings den mit hym.

i'm slowly startin to feel tt way.
aru pk nk kerje ngn dier den he mls oredy nk kerje.
den like wasted.
we went thru all dose shit bcos he nk werk den in d end he nk stop werk.
like d damage is done.
at least prove tt its worthwhile.

i'm not sure if tings wud ever b d same.
but is it worth hanging on.?

i've been mixing wit many ppl dese days.
n i notice d changes in me.
i'm nt gonna say cos i noe mesti menyakitkan ati dier.
Maybe one day we can try it again
And maybe things can be a little different
So lets just kiss and say good bye