heys~
as xpected my comp is not okay.
i'm at his hs.
he's sleepin.
b4 u guys start askin loatsa qns.
nope.
we're nt ok.
he finally confessed d truth.
d part i feared d most.
n as xpected,it came thru.

2 daes ago we went msia in d late mornin.
n yah.
we tot a lot.
overnyt dere.
caught 2 movie.
bla3.
den headed hm.
we had another tok b4 leaving.

now i'm at his hs wit hym n hs adik sleepin.
played xbox jap tadi.

so yah.
he said he like tis gal alot.
n i love hym a lot too.
bt i'm really willing to let hym go wit tt gal.
n i will pray n hope fer d best fer dem.
bt he's so reluctant to do it.
mayb being wit her brings more benefits den being wit me.
dun worie abt me.
i'll b fine.
realli.
at least i'll try my best.

y he likes d gal?
i don blame hym.
i only haf myself to blame.
y he likes d gal?
1 ting fer sure is becos d gal has smthin tt i don.
n its smthin tt he nids.
tts y.

he nids her.
he don nid me.

its sad wen smone cud catch up wit u tt fast.

all tis while i took our love fer granted.
all tos while i took u fer granted.
i'm so sorie.

i 've once pictured us apart.
bt nvr had i tot tt it wud tis hard.
i'm torn apart.
worst den i had ever felt b4.

bt its ok.
i'd slowly pull myself together again.

i look arnd.
my frens nw r havin long relationships.
it makes me sad.
i look arnd.
my frens haf found their smone special.
it makes me sad.

we've plan so much together.
bt notin came true tis yr.

teachin u fer ur o.
ice skatin.
pool.

notin seems ryt dese daes.
i've lost contact wity my bro.
my mum owns a huge sum of money due to sm window problem.
d window in my grands room fell.
charged fer killerlitter n to repair.
more den $2000 wasted.
smtin is wrong wit my maid.
cud anytin get any worst?

fer 2 nyts straight,while u're asleep,
i stayed up d whole nyt.
just to look n admire u fer d last tym.
hold ur armss tytly fer dlast tym.
kiss u fer d last tym.
hug u tytly fer d last tym.
wishin tt i wudnt haf to let go.
each tym i look at u.
i cant realli tell wat i feel.
hapie. sad. confuse.
bt i nvr fail to shed a tear each tym i tynk of u.

last tym u used to scold me over d smallest stuff.
now i noe u actualli cared.
i noe no one cud ever care fer me like u did.
n i noe no one wud ever love me like u did.
no one cn ever hg me like u did.
or even kiss me like u did.
no one cud ever make me feel d wae tt u did.
u noe.
d feelin i get wen each tym u make a silly face den kiss me.
or d feelin i get wen u scold me.
or d feelin i get wen u praise me.
or feelin i get wen each tym we hug to sae gdbye.

i was realli lookin ferward to spendin our aniv. tis mth 2gether.
or so many more mths to cum.
i realli wanted to clebrate his bdae wit hym again.

i've nvr love smone as much as u b4.
i nvr tot i wud love u tis much either.

i wish i cud go back in tym.
back to those un spoiled moments in our relationship.
b4 hurt ever touched our hearts,
b4 doubts ever entered our minds.
bcos if i cud go back n start frm those moments once more,
i wud hold u longer,
nvr miss a chanceto tell u,
hw much u mean to me.
n i wud nvr ever hurt u.
bt i know we cant go back to those daes.
i know i cant erase d mistakes.
i cant take away d qns u must haf.
or d hurt we both feel.
bt i can assure u one tinmg.
i love u as i did den n as i always will.


i love u very strong.
bt sadly i hafta let u go.

thankieu.
sayin it a million tym cud nt even cum close to all t u haf gave me.

nw its 4.31am.
another hr b4 i hafta go.
so bye~
got to treasure every last bits of d moments left.