wtf.
i dont wanna get anywhere close to you.

i dont know whats happenin anymore.
and i dont feel the way i shud be.
instead.
i'm feeling things i shudnt feel.

maybe it was wrong to let this feeling grow.
or maybe it was even wrong to rekindle the light.
wtf.
wtf.

i took all my guts to do things i hate just for you.
i push away all my wants just to make you smile.
i pretend to get along and be happy just for you.
i tried liking things i hate to satisfy you.
i sacrifice the times i spent with others to spent them with you.
but instead what do i get?
loneliness.
sadness.

i should have known just like in the begginning.
that after each fyt.
everything changed for the better.
and as always.
it always lasted a while.

each time i look at this smone.
it just hurts.
knowing that i'm lying to myself.
telling me that i'm ok with it.

you know you should go watch that hindi movie.

maybe it might knock some sense into you.

damn ugh you.

go to her now quick.

she's all you ever need.

fuck.

i cant even go up to you for support.but u can give it everything else to her.

i look at all the blogskins i saved.

i look at all the love songs i saved.

i look at the things i wanted to buy and do for our aniv.

but what was that saying?

nvr count yr eggs b4 it hatch?

now i get it.

tot preparing to fall in love was good.

but preparing to fall out of it is even better.

i'm helping to strengthen ur bond with her even more ok.

so thank me.