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Sunday, October 29, 2006

just got home actually.

okay fine.

i know i haven been getting home early these past few days.

lol.

yesterday night went out around 2.3o and slacked.

till like close to 7 am.

lol.

was nice lah blabering the whole time.

just the 3 of us.

today went out with the fam and got home by 7.

met up with some at gv and went mac fer a while.

the rock chick has finaly came back to spore.

slacked for a while b4 meeting smone else under his blk.

gosh.

guess it's a rough time for you to0.

i'm sorie i cant help much.

but if you ever need smone.

you know i'll be there.

at 12 then acompanied smone to buy his ciggs at 7 11.

we then sat down and talked.

till 3.

i felt much better.

no wait.

i'm lying.

i felt way loads better.

thankieu very2 much

these days.

ppl have been really nice.

thanks.

sch tmrw.

ugh.

at 7:15 PM

i've sort out wat to do.

but i'm not sure when.

i wanna clear things first before taking a step ahead.

how could one just leave when he/she had made a mess out of things.

and you.

you know who you are.

hope you'll be very blessed for wat u're willing to do.

once again.

thank you.

maybe then.

i'll find my new romeo.

one tt doesnt lie to me over the smallest stuffs.

Once more you tell those lies to me.

Why cant you just be straight up with honesty?

i know its all gone.

so dont keep lying and keep me hanging by a thread.

i'll leave.

if only you told me the truth.

i'm trying my best.

but you couldnt careless.

*its funny how you used to nvr wanna give up on us.

but look who's giving up now.*

at 1:41 PM

so yesterday was smone's bdae.

and i didnt attend sch.

cos i cudnt sleep the night b4.

i wont specify whyy.

but thanks to you.

for accompanying me thru out the night.

at least it felt much better.

thanks.

met up with farna before heading to safwan's hs.

was really like a reunion sia.

elfy was dere.

mohsin was dere.

nad and gang.

farah and gang.

like almost the whole of 4e3.

but was nice lahh.

to0 bad i cudnt stayed much longer.

wish i cud actually.

went to work straight after that.

had to do eos with dearest shun yong.

who is so hyper active.

which is actually a good thing lah.

cos he never failed to make me laugh.

with all his crap.

lol.

even though i was freaking exhausted.

so today was the 2nd day i went out with the family.

okay lah.

got home close to 11.

after which.

dani.

ifan.

izzat.

alip.

and fauzie came over.

i was at my first hs when ifan actually called.

and yah of course i wud know by then what they want right.

lol.

aniway they did came.

left arounf 12.15 if i'm not wrong.

and i didnt had time to shower.

so i was still in my baju kurung.

and coincedently.

my colour was the same as smone.

lol.

actually i didnt plan on buying this colour.

smone did.

we were like together for less then a mth.

and he was already talking abt rayer.

and the colour he wants US to wear.

so eventually we did bought the same colour.

but its just sad it didnt happen.

aniway it was nice to see them lah.

after like so long.

but mr syaheed wasnt there.

i wanted to bully him so badly.

lol

*something strange is occuring.*

at 1:54 AM

Saturday, October 28, 2006

No more dreams of warm hands and soft eyes,

No more hopes of gentle kisses in the night.

The realization of losing you is slow sinking in.

I never wanted it to be my fault,

So why do I feel like it is?

I always wanted someone who could make me happy,

I yearned for someone to make me feel loved.

And I received all these useless questions,

Which the answers to we don't know.

All left to this pointless wonder.

I don't mean this to make you feel guilty,

It's just that I don't know what to say.

I never expected to ever lose you,

It hit me like a slap in the face.

I hope you know that I still love you.

at 4:11 AM

Friday, October 27, 2006

splendid.

started my day with the oh so lazy attitude to come to sch.

but as usual i manage to overcome my laziness.

for god knows what reason whyy.

came a bit late for lecture.

ended up sitting btwn juliana and jacky.

actually noting much happened.

only inside.

everything else is stirring.

ppl are all telling me what to do.

its just tt i cant bring myself to it.

i need help.

i would like to thank everyone for making my day today.

jacky for keeping me awake during maths lecture.

d 1 who accompanied me to "have lunch"

but ended up laughing only at itas.

it was nice somehow.

d 1 who accompanied me took the bus home.

d 1 who accompanied me to top up my ezlink.

and to gv.

and to help me change schedule cos i cant work tt early.

d 1 who kept me accompanied thru out the night.

helping me take things off my mind.

d other 1 who lend me his ears and spared a thought.

and finally.

to the one who was willing to find his long lost calculator to

to lend it to me.

lol.
its not all from the same person.

if u should know who you are.

thanks.

If one can lie even over the smallest stuffs.

what more abt the bigger ones?

i think i've written this before.

but wth.

liar.

oh well.

tmrw's someone bdae.

reminds me of what happened exactly a yr ago.

let bygone be bygone.

ure gone aniway.

*i QUIT pretending u're in love with me.*

at 12:46 AM

Thursday, October 26, 2006

my gawd.

its raining

cats and dogs.

cows and boars.

goats and lambs.

and whatever animal you can think of lah.

lol.

k lame.

just makes me feel like playing in the rain.

with a beloved maybe?

a little hug and kiss in the rain wont hurt.

please?

lol

snap back to reality ppl.

lol.

okay.

my rayer was okay.

i didnt recieved as much as i did last yr.

but its still acceptable.
met the cuzzin at atoks house.

went to erm.

like 5 houses i think.

was so tired like that.

received so many msgs.

even unexpected ppl did msg.

even kim.

was nice lahh of him.

had lessons today from 8.

and it was suppose to end at 1.

but got released at 11.20.

had to work after that.

was restless.

yet so many patrons came.

i was like lazy to do anything.

yet there was so much to do.

i'm damn irrtated with the door lah can!

each time my hands are full,

i cant open it.

and its worst when i'm carrying heavy stuffs!

james kept laughing at me the whole time.

idiot.

as usual.

despite feeling the way i did.

i enjoyed work today.

though it was 4 hrs.

with james bullying me bec of the door.

with kim helpning me OPEN the door each time.

lol.

was washing the chiller.

and the box ppl were all so free.

walk here and there.

ugh.

and kim offered me all his fries.

lol.

that was nice of him lah.

since my stomach was grumbling.

oh ya.

nad cam over yesterday.

as usual.

for few yrs straight.

i was delighted.

i tot u forgot.

bleargh.,

lepak nyer

me. feika. qila.

*i dont hate her. i just hate the way you love her.*

at 10:06 AM

this time, this place

misused,

mistakes

too long,

too late

who was i to make you wait

just one chance

just one breath

just in case

there's just one left

'cause you know,

you know, you know

(chorus)

that i love you

i have loved you all along

and i miss you

been far away for far too long

i keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go

stop breathing if i don't see you anymore

one my knees,

i'll ask

last chance for one last dance'

cause with you,

i'd withstand

all of hell to hold your hand

i'd give it alli'd give for us

give anything but i won't give up'

cause you know,

you know, you know

(chorus)

so far away

been far away for far too long

so far away

been far away for far too long

but you know,

you know, you know

i wanted

i wanted you to stay'cause i needed

i need to hear you say

that i love you

i have loved you all along

and i forgive you

for being away for far too long

so keep breathing'cause i'm not leaving

hold on to me and, never let me go

at 6:56 AM

Monday, October 23, 2006

first day of my sec sem.

how could i possibly phrase it?

forget it.

bought new books for the sem.

and damn those book were like.

"creating holes in my pocket"

and the thickness of the books.

esp engine maths 2.

if ever i cud find a word to replace far worst then horrible.

tt'll be it.

besides having 4 hrs of break.

and meeting so many old friends tt i missed.

and coming to sch extra early just now.

everything else was pretty much nice.

and psychology seems really interesting.

went to work after sch.

with so many full house.

how could i not help but feel really worn out at this moment.

yet.

i'm still blogging.

lol.

my hp was vibrating the whole time.

msgs.

and more msgs.

and yes everyone.

apoligies accepted.

and so i hope mine will too.

oh well.

selmat hari rayer then.

*i turned green when i saw her holding you.

cos for tt sec,

she held my world.*

at 5:07 PM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

was working at the box office just now.

and we ended beforehand.

thats when it came to me.

how much i yearn to feel the way i did.

i missed the feeling of wanting

everything to be done fast so tt i can go home early after werk.

i missed the feeling when a collegue comes to me.

and says ur bf outside.

i missed the feeling of smone fetching me after work.

i missed the feeling of enjoying myself with only the bf

after a long day at work.

oh well.

what else could be done.

i feel like going out right now.

i'm so bored.

everything i do nvr seems right.

i'll only hurt myself in the end.

*Expectations brings dissapointment*

at 5:43 PM

okay fine.

decided to change my skin for the last time.

b4 i get all tangled up with sch.

werked at the new candybar just now.

wasnt as intriguing as i tot.

it was so-so.

work was pleasant esp with those closes around.

hui yun's pinch never fails to wake me up.

yong jie's pampered self never fails to make me smile.

din's willing to lend a helping hand never fails to make me feel easier.

and if i'd continue.

i'll be writing a composition instead.

went home after werk.

was stalked by this grp of guys.

and was nice lah too see that my friends actually cared enough.

thanks~

called smone but he was asleep.

so yah.

i nimbled home.

went geylang the other day with frens frm werk.

and i bought the cd's to heart and the kabhi2 film.

so i got a bit into the songs especially.

i then noticed how cute irwansyah is.

lol.

at 4:11 AM

Friday, October 20, 2006

My gawd.

timetables are out.

and mine is.

erms.

horrendous~

here's why.

monday sch starts at 9 till 1.

after which i got 4 hrs break.

before having psychology lecture at 5!

what the bloody hell am i suppose to do btwn that time?

on tuesday i have to come to sch at 9.

for psychology tutorial.

which last only for an hr.

after which i have a 2 hrs break.

before continuing lessons from 12 till 4.

wth

wed is from 8 to 1.

thursday.

9 to 12.

break again.

till 1.

after which lesson continue from 1 till 5.

and on friday.

9 to 1.

wth.

aniway.

3 more days to next sem.

4 more days to hari raya.

i'm awfully sorie.

to those who asked me out.

to break fast together.

but i didnt.

its not tt i dont want.

i'd loved to.

but i just got a little caught up with work.

and when i'm free.

some turned out not.

caught guardian with nad.

isk.

n din just now.

heart warming also lahh the storey.

nice.

wanted to catch death note just now.

but as expected.

full.

ugh.

oh well.

tata.

*i can't help but feel a little bit sad about the things you and i never had *

at 2:22 AM

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

PLEASE STOP THE CURRENT MUSIC AND PLAY THE VIDEOCLIP. THIS IS THE LYRICS.

PLUS WHAT I FEEL.

LOL.

btw,

i love the way irwansyah looks at her.

esp at the 1 min 30 sec part.

would you ever look at me

like the way he did dear?

Embun di pagi buta

Menebarkan bau asa

Detik demi detik ku hitung

Inikah saat ku pergi

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia

Berikanlah aku hidup

Takkan ku sakiti dia

Hukum aku bila terjadi

Aku tak mudah mencintai

Aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta

Aku tak mudah mengatakan

Aku jatuh cinta

Senandungku hanya untuk cinta

Tirakatku hanya untuk engkau

Tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta

Sampai ku menutup mata

Cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia

Berikanlah aku hidup

Takkan ku sakiti dia

Hukum aku bila terjadi

Aku tak mudah mencintai
Aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
Aku tak mudah mengatakan
Aku jatuh cinta

at 8:08 PM

kays.

so my blog has been lacking of words these recent entries.

just pics right.

maybe bec i ran out of words to use.

ran out of ideas to potray my feelings.

or maybe bec simply i cant put down what i've felt into words.

i'd be exagerating when if ppl ask if i'm okay.

and i retaliate with these 2 werd "i'm fine".

life has been pretty tolerably alright for me.

the only time i'm at liberty is of course during work.

Its that time of the mth again.

where i get all moody and cranky.

so i have been like having really bad cramps these past few mths.

and its odd cos i never had cramps before

eversince i started having this thing.

lol.

so i was late for work due to that just now.

and when nora asked if i was fasting,

i replied to her in malay that i wasnt.

and i was sort of begrudging to her

abt the pain.

and how i wasnt use to it

in malay the whole time.

and didnt even realise

kim swee was at the next counter,

eavesdropping.

until he replied.

"nak panadol menstrual?"

lol. super cute lah.

i was like paisey after that.

some more i thought he knew only a bit of malay.

but damn i was wrong lah can. lol.

so tmrw will be the last day gv is under renovation.

after which by thurs,

everything is pretty much back to the way they were b4.

except for the fact that the new candy bar has walls like these.

and uses touch screen instead of the normal buttons.

and the new box office has walls like these.

and carpet like these

mr yong jie here

has been pretty nice to me lately.

and it was nice of him lah just now.

when i had cramps and he was concern.

oh well.

tmrw i'd be doing stocktake again like i did last week.

and i came home close to 4 last week.

hopefully this time round it'll be much earlier.

so wish me luck!

anyone want to find me,

kindly proceed to the site office tmrw. lol.

aniway,

i cud have joined at least one out of the 2 grp of friends that want to catch a movie tmrw.

but thanks to stocktake,

i cant!

sob2.

speaking of which.

i wanna have A movie partner.

sick of changing partners each time

one that can watch movie with me every week.

and have interest in watching them too.

but dont worry.

its always on the house when you're with me.

i'm up for death note.

anyone?
i'm suddenly looking forward to each and every single day despite what's happening.not having a clue what's in store for me next.
am suddenly excited abt hari raya. plus next sem. :)

at 7:27 PM

at 12:46 AM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

As I leave here today,

apartment 108

I'll always keep you in my heart.

Anderson is cold tonight,

The leaves are scattered on the ground.

I miss the seasons,

And the comfort of your smile.

Sometimes this all feels like a dream.
I'm waiting for someone to just wake me up,
From this life.

As I look out at these fairgrounds,
I remember how our family split apart.
I don't think I ever told you,
But I know you always did your best.
And the hard times,
They only made us stronger.

As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Sometimes we're helpless and alone,
But you can't let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.

Do you ever feel like crying?
Do you ever feel like giving up?
I raise my hands up towards the sky,
I say this prayer for you tonight,
Because nothing is impossible.

As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.

So maybe now you finally know.

Sometimes we're helpless and alone,

But you can't let it keep you weighted down.

You must go on.

(The hardest part isn't finding what we need to be,
it's being content with who we are.)

Stay who you are.
You must go on.
Stay who you are.

The wallpaper of my laptop is the reason that kept me going.

at 7:48 PM

at 6:49 PM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

at 7:39 PM

Friday, October 13, 2006

at 7:41 PM

Would you care to be that boy?

at 2:01 PM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

that day i went photobucket to search for pics.

and i saved so many messed up pics.

but when i want to update one in todays entry.

none of them subside with what i'm feeling right now.

which i'm not sure if it's good or not.

bt nvm.

i still dont get whyy tt someone said my blog is interesting

aniwae.

on tues went to vivo for the mystery shopper.

was a blissful experience.

was very perky that morning.

after which i went home to sleep.

was really lacked of it.

and had worked after that.

ecstatic.

met up with saiful and syamir.

and faris joined along the way.

kinda admired what he did.

cos he was asleep when we called.

and he still joined us even though his house wasnt somewhere within range of mine.

plus he had no transport.

and he had to walk.

i bet those with transport wont even take d effort.

oh heck!~

slacked and decided to have our breakfast at mac.

which we bumped into some ppl.

and i shall not explain what happened.

its their mouth and let them say what they wanna say.

anything as long as it pleases them.

glad what ever happened there happened.

cos i got to see things which i didnt know.

and yes.

you opened up my eyes to things i couldnt see.

had stocktake today with khai.

and as usual ended late.

but i had a wonderful time though.

syamir,saiful and faris watched stay alive.

and as for that someone.
u have never reached home early these few days.
and ya.
he kinda promise he wanted to get back some straight after werk today.
but did he?

plus adding to his friend.

the only thing i cud thing of is.

taking a step ahead.

once i do.

i'll never turn back.

this i swear.

aniwae.

god has been unbiased to me.

its like growing a flower.

i get shit.

but when i put it in the pot of flower,

it fertilze the soil.

helping the flower to grow healthy.

and with source of water and sunlight,

its much more healthy.

get what i mean?

or isit too deep for you?

nyehehe.

aniwae.

dearest sharir.

although i may be a little late.

but happy 18 bdae.

although i know whyy you dislike d fact tt ur bdae is on the same day as u know who.

lol.

*Come live in my heart,

and pay no rent.*

at 8:57 PM

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Maybe Im not ready for this,

and you know it.

Maybe Im too scared to tell you

what Im really thinking

Its not fair to stay together

because of regrets we might have.

I dont want to fall asleep alone,

but do I want to wake up with you?

Im only trying to be completely honest.

So I guess this is the ending or a beautiful mistake.

And if we both agree that we shouldnt be together

why does it hurt so much?

I feel like I lost my closest friend.

I dont want to fall asleep alone,

but do I want to wake up with you?

I hope youre happy and completely lonely.

There I am standing all alone on sydney harborbridge.

And you know I would jump into the fucking ocean

if it meant I was truly capable of being satisfied.

Well I ever be?

Did I just give up the best thing I ever had?

I dont want to fall asleep alone,

but do I want to wake up with you?

I hope youre happy and completely lonely.

I dont want to fall asleep alone,

but do I want to wake up with you?

Im only trying to be completely honest.

at 4:26 AM

Monday, October 09, 2006

i thought when things abruptly ended.

so will the thought of me gettig hurt too.

but i guess its still the same.

with or without you.

i gave up everything just for u girl.

wat more do u want?

i 'm not holding on animore.

he's all urs to call ur own ok?

i've had enough.

i'll find my new one.

one that has got noting to do with you.

at 9:44 AM

Sunday, October 08, 2006

okay.

been working for the past 2 days.

so by the time i reched home,

i was too worn out to post an entry.

so working is just one of those dazzling ways to forget

all our troubles.

and its lovely.

dearest gundu.

made one entry fer me in her blog.

okay.

i darn miss you too lah can?

you know what to do when 2 parties missed each other?

nyehehe.

i was looking at the ppl who came to watch movie.

and i was so turned off by girls.

who are so into branded goods.

felt like taking their "branded" begs and knocking these vainpots back into their sense.

ugh~

i'm left with 2 more week before the next term starts.

and like i said before.

i'm not looking forward to rayer for ambigious reasons whyy.

Can i have someone to call my own?

Can i have someone to think of each time i wake up or sleep.

Can i have someone to talk to every night?

Can i have someone without sharing him?

Can i have someone to please?

Can i have someone's heart n feelings to look after?

Can i have someone to lean on when the tide gets rough?

would you even care to be that someone?

*Absence sharpens love,

presence strengthens it.*

at 3:34 PM

Friday, October 06, 2006

Can I bare to forget you,
when everything we've done
remains to keep me up at night
And do see that I'm sorry
I didn't think that you'd
Ever want to be this close to m
eAnd now that it's late

Please understand
That I'm not too close to what you were hoping for
Mistakes have misled you
So what are you waiting for
I didn't think you'd be like this
Think you're right but you're so wrong
Just try to understand
I can't hold on to this
For long
Let's take the time to see if my
Lips belong on yours tonight

Living down the days you have
The one and only thing you got
Led you through those desperate nights
They were far too late
Forget the bitter taste in your mouth
Wash it out down with blood
The lines across your face tell stories
Guarded by
Your eyes
Never say things have changed
Yes they have
It's not the same

at 2:35 PM

Went vivo just now.

caught scoop.

wit din,farris,fai and ayu.

was nice lah.

the storey.

and the place.

and yah.

met some ex staffs there.

actually the uniform ok lah.

but it only looks beter on some of them.

nyehehe.

the journey there was damn long.

for me lahh.

haha.

din me and farris

this was taken on the day i went out with nana

lazy to update many2.

just that despite whats happening.

i'm loving everysingle thing.

*Please don't test my limit of love for you.
I might end up destroying the world.*

at 12:08 AM

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Away
How hard can it be away?
I promise I'll be just fine
Avoiding the paths you take

You have to try to make this easy
You have to try for me
Sometimes
I'm scared that things could be
So much better than this
What's best is not right
Sometimes I wish that we could be
So much closer than this
But I won't look up when you walk away

Away
Just tell me you'll stay away
It's so hard to act surprised

You never look down when I'm gone
You have to try to make this easy
You have to try for meSometimes
I'm scared that things could be
So much better than this
What's best is not right
Sometimes I wish that we could be
So much closer than this
But I won't look up when you walk away

at 8:44 AM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

so decided to change the skin again.
cos i'm no longer in the "love goes bad situation".
bec mine our had vanished.
yeap.
vanished.
end gradually.
perish.
flee.
haha.
k enough.

but the point is.
like baby used to say.
we are apart.
no longer a part.
get what i mean.?

so yah.
bec yesterday i told him the truth.
that i can never accept him and her together.
and i dont like the idea of sharing him either.
and yah like he said.
no matter what happens they will still b that way.
so yah.
decided to call it quits.
cant say we didnt try.
tried for 2 whole mths.
but sadly i cant.

and like she always says. letting go for other's happiness.she always says that.but found it hard for her to do.so i guess it only leaves one option left.i'll do it.instead of her.cos the bond they had.was way stronger then ours.

just come to show how much we really mean to each other.
from my eyes lah.
which i would not wanna exagerate more.
but yah.
mistakes i made along the way.
ppl i hurt along the way.
i'm faithfully sorie for what i did.
esp to that someone somewhere along the break up.

going out with nana reminds me of so many things.
and it does hurts.
but what can i do.

you'll be just another memory to me too.
just like everyone else.

with those previous ppl.
when i know there's another girl in the storey.
i didnt know y i cud easily let them go.
but when it comes to you.
as always.
everything seems like i'm doing it for the first time.
struggling.
unsure.
just like a new born infant.
whyy?

oh well.
like said.
u'll be just another memory.

i wanna make a new one.
and i'm up for starting everything back from square one.

*The love we give away is the only love we keep*

at 4:25 PM

today was nice. :)
woke up then meet the bf and do my ezlink.
which caused me $31.
wth.

so we were damn quiet.
for only god know the reason whyy.

met up with nana and yah.
break fast.
walk.
bla3.

after which i met up with syamir,saiful and faris at dhoby ghout.
:)

went gv for a while to pay the money.
then went coffebean to slack.
lisa and zura came.
but went off close to 12.
and we left close to 2.30.
:)

it feels so nice talking to them.
been smiling though i'm having a big tiff with the bf.

you know what.
maybe i had enough of everyting.
and its time i did what i should have done a long time ago.
:)

cant wait for sch to reopen.
for only god knows whyy.
:)
:)
:)

* you've open up my eyes to a whole new world. :) *

at 2:33 AM

Monday, October 02, 2006

1.Single,taken or crushing??
definately taken :)

2.Are u happy with ur life now?
There's ups and down but I thank God for what I have now

3.When you meet the right person,will you fall with him/her fast?
Erms.It depends actually.

4.Have you had your heart broken?
:)

5.Do you believe there are circumstances where cheating love is acceptable
I believe that I can make exception if its reasonable enough. People are accustom to mistakes. At least you will no what and what not to do after that. Get what i mean?

6.Would you talk to someone back if he/she cheats on you?
Forgive and Forget. :)

7.Have you talk to another person about marriage before?
yes. but erms. nvm.

8.Do you want children?
undoubtedly.

9.How many?
two/three.

10.Would you consider adoption?
If my future husband is ok with the idea. But i want to call them my own. :)

11.If someone likes you right now,what do you think of him letting you know his/her feelings?
I reckon he should digest the fact that I'm already with someone.

12.Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
Yes. The pain and the pleasure.

13.Be honest.What did you and your ex did?
spent most of the time at outs.

14.Do you believe in love at first sight?
No.

15.Are you romantic?
Try asking those who know me maybe?

16.Do you believe you can change someone?
I take him as who he is. Not who he was and not who he is going to be.

17.If you could marry somewhere,where would it be?
Wherever. As long as i'm happily getting married to the one i love.

18.Do you easily give in when you're fighting?
Well it depends actually. Your luck. XD

19.Do you have feelings for someone right now?
Everyone. I have feelings. in case ppl tend to forget. :)

20.Have you ever wish you could have someone but you messed it up?
I'm happy with what I have now. Its irrelevant to dwell on the past.
Just trying to not repeat my mistakes.

21.Have you broken a heart?
yes. to make things less complicated between me and the other party.

22.One day if your bestfriend fall in love with he/she that you are deeply in love with.What would you do?
If she is my bestfriend, she'll respect me and barge in to my relationship.

23.Are you missing someone right now?
Yes. to who ever it may concern. :)

i did all this out of drabness!
and i cant sleep.
hurhur.
:(

went geylang just now to get my rayer clothes.

:)
break fast there.

i'm fatigued.
but i cant get horizontal.
in another werd, sleep.
wth.

working at cb closing tmrw.
tc.

at 6:18 PM

i never felt that you completely belong to me.

and only me.

at 7:06 AM

Sunday, October 01, 2006

worked night for the past 2 days.

went home late due to the fact that there were midnight shows.

and i'd be lying if i said i didnt had a pleasant time .

went mac after work today.

got home kind of late.

but who cares ryt?

yesterday the tall guy from lightyears came.

he's cute.

then joshua ang also came.

he's double the cute.

today hafiz glamour came.

and jai came with his wife too.

whyy ehh suddenly like got so many artist come.

hehs.

feeling rather despondent.

for only god knows whyy.

i dont know.

yesterday was bf's latest ex bdae.

they had an outing while i was working.

and yah.

he's flaked out by the time i finished work.

so i didnt got to find out how was his day.

aniway.

was nice lahh babling with khai and lisa today.

so finally september is over.

22 more days to 2nd sem.

23 more days to rayer.

which i just dont seem to look forward to for ambiguous reasons whyy.

i so badly wanna go vivo.

at 8:57 PM