you know.
at times wonders do come to your life.
and your life just turns so beautiful and you wish it will always last forever.
and the next minute everything turns grey,
anD you wishing it'll be gone forever?
these past few weeks had really got me a lot of thinking.
why things happen the way it does.
but really.
i still dont have the answers to my qns.
for example.
a new fren of mine at werk asked my name after i spoke to him for the first time.
cos i had to teach him how to take care of a burnt popper.
the conversation goes like this:
him: namer saper?
me: siti.
him: Siti ape?
me: MAisarah
him: namer cam pernah dgr. Ex ifan eh?
and the next minute i know they were classmates in ITE tamp.
few days later.
the ex chat with me online.
and whats funny was that he said its been a while since we last chat.
and that was how it just triggers my memory.
from one point to another.
EX.
i mean.
i dont have plenty.
but the least i cud remember.
that no matter how badly we broke up.
or how wrong we were.
i've manage to contain a fresh clean friendship bond btwn us.
and i mean all.
except the recent one.
that got me wondering too.
why can the others forgave each other but he dont?
will the bf be the same?
well that was another qns.
or about sch.
how i suddenly lost so much interest this semester just in a blink of an eye.
while i have been forcing myself to sch for the past 3 yrs.
i do care about my studies,
just that i'm not tt interested.
that got me thinking too.
how i'm way behind every projects.
and every lesson.
how i fear tt i wud have to retake another subj
and have to go through poly life longer then the rest.
dont i have to think about this too
or what about friends?
like i've come acrros smone's friendster.
or maybe her blog.
how she say she dislikes that her bestfren found new frns and forgot abt her.
well
who wud like being in tt position ryt?
but if you really called that person your bestfriend.
you'll always know that at the end of the day,
they'll always come back to you.
no matter how many friends they got.
or we got.
and this goes for the best friend too.
i know you've been buzy.
making new frens and all.
but i just hope that you just dont have to always be around when you're sad.
a little visit will always do.
after all,
you're just 2 storey's away.
and if ever i've been harsh,
i'm so sorry.
cos its funny how you alway say kim tell you storey abt tt hafiz tt makes you hate hafiz so much.
and then you say kim was like stupid.
at times.
i feel that you're doing what kim did.
maybe tt's why i reacted tt way.
and i'm sorry.
i just dont want to see you hurt.
thats all.
well that got me thinking again
or even the bf.
everything has been so well.
and i love being with you.
but at times,
we need to know our limits.
yes i love having you to sleep next to me everynight.
but.
sometimes, i can hardly wake u up for sch.
neither can i get up myself.
or the fact tt we have to argue over eating.
i dont like having to force myself to eat.
each time you want to eat.
and when i got uncomfortable with myself,
you'll always think tt i'm overreacting.
no.
its not tt i want to look good.
its tt i need to feel good.
cos its builds up my confidence.
after all.
who else is there for me to impress but you.
hasnt tt got me thinking too?
and the fact tt my maid has gone back.
and my mum had to take mc for 2 days.
just to stay at hme and cook.
and do the house chores.
and that really got me thinking too.
what if my mum decides to not have a maid animore?
well.
wonders in life are not really all about beautiful things.
but the less beautiful things that makes my life,
perfectly beautiful the way it is.